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Deviation Spotlight
Deviation Spotlight
Deviation Spotlight
Deviation Spotlight
- Oct 22
- United States
- Deviant for 13 years
(eheh... nom?)
(Salute your 'Major'!)
I'm mainly here to fave great artworks of my favorite fandoms and other things of interest and comment and give support to the many wonderful artists that can be found here on DA. If you'd like to chat, send me a note. I'm hardly one to consider 'unfriendly' unless you're ignorant of the concept of tact and common decency when such behavior should be displayed.
What I actually DO here on DA:
I am a hobby writer for the most part. I enjoy writing poetry and fanfiction, and I experiment with unique formatting. I sometimes will upload photos, although mainly it is writing, and sometimes I'll post voice acting or original mixes with dark sound effects.
Fandoms:
A LOT.
Anyways, hope you enjoy your visit, and don't feel shy! Leave a comment! I'm actually a lot nicer than you'd think X'DD (In fact, I chat too much and so you'll have to excuse my nonsense.. I APOLOGIZE FOR NOTHING!!)
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Hey there! Would you like to visit my Deviantart page? I have a lot of great artworks, but unfortunately I'm purely underrated.
Hope you are doing okay. Haven’t heard from you for a while. Like 
, I am kind of worried…
Hi Hashi. I'm sorry, it's been too long. I gave a much longer response to Uber who commented several months before you. But in short... I haven't been doing too well, but at the same time, I've been working on myself big time. I'm thinking of purging a good portion of this gallery and my fanfics on AO3 (basically, backing them up so that they're aren't lost for good- and so I can redo/continue them if I ever feel up to it).
You were always awesome, and I enjoyed watching you grow as a writer. I liked commenting on your work and seeing you comment on my stuff, too. Just like Uber.
I won't be active on here most likely, but I still needed to get this all off my chest since it wasn't fair to you all that I went AWOL without being honest that I've just lost the motivation to fix or continue half of what I started on this site.
I hope the best for you, and if you do want to keep contact outside of DA, I'm more than happy to give you my Discord or email over notes.
Glad to hear from you. That is ok, happens to me too- long delays in replying.
Hope things get better...and that is understandable. I did the same with my really old works back on Fanfiction.net years ago that kept getting trolls. But they weren’t the ones you’d have seen, they were from before 2012, eight years ago.
Thanks for the kind words! Liked reading and commenting on your stuff too!
That is understandable, thanks for telling.
Thanks, hope the best for you too! I have Gmail, would that work?
Glad to hear from you, too! Also, no worries. God, I'm terrible with long delays in replies.
I hope so, too. It's been a rough... well, several years. But for every bad thing, there's been several good. I have to weigh the good with the bad. Also, practice is the best thing for a writer. The more we write the better we'll get. It's all about experience.
Gmail works! I'll send you a note with my email.
I wanted to reach out to you because it's been so long, and I really feel like I owe an explanation for pretty much going AWOL for over a year.
I've had a mixture of doing well and not doing so well, pretty much thinking back to my deviantart carries a mixed bag of emotions. I'm drowning in medical debt, but have been tackling it quite well. I've also switched to overnight stocker at a grocery store because working customer service over the phone, although much higher pay, was too stressful for me.
Basically... there's so much that I want to purge, update, add to my gallery here. However... I've made so many promises of continuing so much that with everything else, I've been scared to admit that I've lost ambition. There's a difference between "wanting" to do something and actually going about it. I hate to disappoint people that I've looked up to and have kept me together for so long, that it was easier to just disappear with it being in the back of my head that I'd make my "grand reappearance with everything finally finished".
I'm ashamed, to be honest. I should've just been honest from the start. I have a habit of cutting contact with others if I feel ashamed of not living up to the expectations I have set for myself, rather than be supportive of the person's other endeavors.
To be honest, I've seen your emails. I thought about responding, but I didn't know what to say. I felt like a failure who's constantly singing the same tune off "could've would've should've will definitely", and I know from experience that kind of attitude turns people away.
I'll come back. I'm thinking this Sunday of purging a huge portion of my gallery into Sta.sh. Same with my AO3 account. I don't like the way a lot of my stuff is written anymore. Some of it, I still think is great, while other parts are littered with over-detail because I couldn't edit out certain lines I liked since those lines by themselves sounded great to me. I also really don't like some of my "artworks" anymore, or photoshop edits.
I have a lot to think about if I ever want to be serious about fixing my gallery's content, but I need to be honest that I haven't had the motivation in a long time. It's far past procrastination, and despite me still loving the fanfics I started, the idea of digging up old notes from papers strewn about boxes, comments and notes on DA, plus an old Onedrive account that I'm not even sure I can reset the password for that also (last I remember) went over the storage limit (during a period where I got more storage as a free trial but didn't renew), is terrifying. The idea that I'd need to redo research for With(out) The Sun in order to remain satisfied with the direction it was supposed to go, scares me. Rewriting my Rubix Cube fanfic, scares me, even though that needs a MAJOR overhaul since it really isn't the braided story that I thought it'd be and constantly switches timelines to the point of cringe. Same with my Undertale fanfic.
More than anything though... I felt like if I admitted any of this, I'd be a worse off person since I still hold onto the hope that someday, I'll still finish what I started. But it's been years already. I don't feel like I'm living in the present, but the past, constantly losing track of time as it progresses.
I'm so sorry. You especially were the nicest person I met on here who was always supportive and a blast to talk to. I'm probably not going to be active on DA anymore. However, at the very least, I felt I still needed to reach out to those who are concerned about my well-being. I also am perfectly happy with still keeping in contact via email, or hell, Discord if you have it.